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Hello Bloggerbeans,

This is kinda a spontaneous post written as I felt inspired by Dodie's new Original song 'Sick of Losing soul mates' which you can listen to HERE It's such a beautiful song and is scarily accurate to how I feel about things at the moment in my head which I need to summarise in words so I can make sense of everything that's happening.

Sometimes people come into your life for a reason. They make you happy and smile and eventually you are inseparable soul mates and when this becomes a long time of knowing someone, each moment spent with them is so special. You plan your life together and how your kids will be best friends and you joke about how you'l never grow apart. However slowly over time you aren't so close as things drift between you both. You don't even notice at first as you still talk and see each other everyday until one day things change. You don't see them everyday as you work at different places now however promise to stay in contact and you do but things get busier and busier until daily text messages become few and far between and inside jokes disappear until their are none left. You try to make things work out but plans fall through and when you do arrange 'catch up sessions' its just simpler to say nothing much has happened as it has been so long since you have talked and seen each other that it's just awkward going into detail and you are left questioning if this is friendship anymore as you can hardly recognize the once soul mate you had.

'It won't happen to me. There's no way we will ever grow apart...' and then you notice and realize, It has already happened in front of your eyes and you don't even realize it. Oh hello stomach pit of sadness which feels like a kick in the gut. 

People change and we all forget that. Its hard to face but sometimes someone you knew a long while ago isn't the same person as you recognize now. Their opinions, Tastes and attitudes change and sometimes you have to let go off the memories of how they were as that's not the person they are anymore. It's taken me a long while to accept this and I may not be okay yet but sometimes promises can't always be kept. It's upsetting when your forever friend is perhaps not your forever friend anymore. 

Until next time x