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Hello Bloggebeans,

I am beginning to become extremely festive as we begin to head very soon into December which is in 5 days! I am super ready for Christmas and what it means; colder weather, time with family, gift giving and receiving as you show the ones you love how much you care and of course food. I really enjoy getting into the festive mood as I feel more cosy in my jumpers, Leggings and Uggs as I snuggle up in a blanket with a warm hot chocolate in my hand. There's just something about the atmosphere leading up to the big day which makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside from all the happiness going on around me and in my life.

With their only being one month left of the year I feel like I have grown as a person so much and a big part of its down to all of you lovely deidcated readers who take your time to read my posts. Each and every single one of you I appreciate fully as this little place on the internet wouldn't be what it is without all your constant support so Thank you :)

This Christmas I plan on making the merriest and brightest so far as I want to carry on making sure that I spend my days filled with happiness as I have finally managed to rid of most of the unhappiness and toxic things that brought me sadness out of my life for the first time ever. I am finally okay with everything which makes a change for once. I want to have December filled to the brim with memories made with the people who I care so dearly about in my life. So if that means playing Christmas music on full blast dancing round the house while putting up the Christmas tree or going shopping for matching Christmas jumpers with a friend then so be it.

So Bloggerbeans, What's your favourite thing to get yourself into the festive spirit

Toodlepip x

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Hello Bloggerbeans,

This is kinda a spontaneous post written as I felt inspired by Dodie's new Original song 'Sick of Losing soul mates' which you can listen to HERE It's such a beautiful song and is scarily accurate to how I feel about things at the moment in my head which I need to summarise in words so I can make sense of everything that's happening.

Sometimes people come into your life for a reason. They make you happy and smile and eventually you are inseparable soul mates and when this becomes a long time of knowing someone, each moment spent with them is so special. You plan your life together and how your kids will be best friends and you joke about how you'l never grow apart. However slowly over time you aren't so close as things drift between you both. You don't even notice at first as you still talk and see each other everyday until one day things change. You don't see them everyday as you work at different places now however promise to stay in contact and you do but things get busier and busier until daily text messages become few and far between and inside jokes disappear until their are none left. You try to make things work out but plans fall through and when you do arrange 'catch up sessions' its just simpler to say nothing much has happened as it has been so long since you have talked and seen each other that it's just awkward going into detail and you are left questioning if this is friendship anymore as you can hardly recognize the once soul mate you had.

'It won't happen to me. There's no way we will ever grow apart...' and then you notice and realize, It has already happened in front of your eyes and you don't even realize it. Oh hello stomach pit of sadness which feels like a kick in the gut. 

People change and we all forget that. Its hard to face but sometimes someone you knew a long while ago isn't the same person as you recognize now. Their opinions, Tastes and attitudes change and sometimes you have to let go off the memories of how they were as that's not the person they are anymore. It's taken me a long while to accept this and I may not be okay yet but sometimes promises can't always be kept. It's upsetting when your forever friend is perhaps not your forever friend anymore. 

Until next time x

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Hello Bloggerbeans,

Over the last couple of months I've began to notice I've been suffering from a case of the Doubts where I constantly feel like I am undermining what I can do. It's that little whisper over my shoulder which tells me just as i'm about to start my coursework 'You're never going to be able to finish it all in time' making me spend the time worrying that i'm not going to do it all in time rather than actually doing it.

Sometimes your so used to a situation that when it comes to change and having the opportunity to do something you really love, you back out as you never think you would be able to do it or that 'someone else can probably do a better job than I can'. Even though I don't want to my Anxiety stops me to do things which I hate but I have to accept that its a part of me. Some days I physically don't feel up to going out at all and a cosy Pyjama day all by myself sounds like heaven however some days I want to go outside and explore and on those days I need to trust myself that everything will be okay and that for the first time in my life so far, I have a metaphorical safety net ready there in case I fall. I need to be brave and put trust in others which is a BIG thing for me. I need to know that not everyone in the world is out to get me and that I just need to Breathe and go for it as if you don't try something out, you'l never know how it will go.

This week I want to set all you Bloggerbeans a little bit of Homework in the form of doing one thing which you normally wouldn't do but are going to try and if it doesn't work out that's totally okay! Breathe, collect your thoughts and have another go at things.

Toodlepip x

Hello Bloggerbeans,

Today's post is a little off from usual as I just wanted to have a reflection on this year so far. A lot has happened this year and it only dawned on me how far I have come when my good pal Katie and I looked back on my first ever attempts of YouTube videos back in May (Which have been privated since the start of this year for cringey reasons) and seeing fetus Katie made me feel so nostalgic to think that those videos were made (badly I must add) just over a year ago. That doesn't sink in for me as I remember the day I filmed my getting to know a Teenage Blogger with my friend Sian and remember how nervous I was. Compared to then I now have the confidence to talk to a camera and now make YouTube videos inspired by other people but are still mine. It also has made me realize how fast time is moving.

This blog is a little bubble of happiness but after the terrible things that happened all over the world on Friday 13th it has really made feel very lucky to be alive, safe and healthy. It scares me a lot to know one day I will not be here on this planet and each to their own beliefs, I believe in re-incarnation in some form that our souls carry on living. It's completely okay to have different beliefs however what I believe is what gives me re assurance that I will be okay when i'm not around. 

Time is precious and you should spend every waking moment doing something that brings you joy. Do the things that you want to do but are just too scared that people will judge you as trust me when you look back on life you will seriously regret not having the heart to tell someone you love them or even giving up your dreams for second best as 'They never happen'. Seize the moments you have with friends, family and loved ones as you don't know whether the minute you say goodbye to someone whether that will be the last waking moment you see them alive. Fulfill life's big moments but don't forget the small ones. To anyone affected by what has happened my heart is heavy for your loss and know that the whole world is deeply saddened by the events that took place.

Toodlepip x

Hello Bloggerbeans,

We are now into the Second week of November which is scary stuff and Christmas is vast approaching. I've already started gathering bits and pieces over the last week to make sure when December comes a calling I am as cool as a cucumber with all my presents sorted leaving me to not panic which happens most years in my family. 

As I have been buying bits and pieces for family, I have been spotting a few items that I have put on my wishlist for Christmas. I want never gets so the majority on here are fleeting wishes however when the January sales come I think I will try and buy a few things of my list this year. Here are just a few of the Makeup purchases I hope to make before Christmas or in the boxing day sales.

Rimmel Lipstick in shades Relaunch Heartbreaker and Lipstick Alarm

Rimmel Exaggerate lip-liner in Red Diva and Red Dynamite

Tanya burrs Deck The Halls Makeup advent Calender

Tanya Burr Candy Glam beauty essentials pallete

Mac Russian Red, Whirl and Costa Chic Lipstick.

Maybelline Age Rewind Eraser eye concealer in Light

Perhaps my list has got you inspired to what to put on your list ready for when people ask you what you would like or even treat yourself this Christmas. I have decided to upload on my YouTube channel once every two weeks so I have enough time to film, edit and get it up. Next weeks video is my first sit down video so fingers crossed filming goes okay this Thursday! It's a little haul full of Lushious Christmas presents so look forward to that. until then,

Toodlepip x

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pssst.. this post was supposed to be uploaded on Friday but wasn't quite ready. Let's just all pretend I had my sh*t together and it was uploaded on time. Okay back to the actual blogpost!

Hello Bloggerbeans,
 Today I thought I would do a very seasonal post on all the joys of Autumn and why it is possibly the best. I tag anyone who is reading this and specifically my friend who owns a little blog called 'Boy Without Purpose' which is totally untrue as he is one of my favourite people who I have in my life. I have tweaked the tag slightly so feel free to answer my questions or search up for the unedited and untweaked versions online.

Favourite Autumn candle scent?
At the moment it has to be Primark's Red berry and Pichouli candle however I am now stocking up on Christmas cookie candles which are a dupe on Yankee Candles Snowflake Cookie which is my favourite scent EVER however is very expensive to buy in a large jar.

Coffee, Tea or Hot Chocolate?
This is hard for me as all 3 are my favourite and it really depends. If I did have to choose it would have to be Hot Chocolate now the weather is getting colder

Which makeup trend do you prefer; Dark lips or winged liner?
I am pants at doing eyeliner to the point I just look like a panda so would have to say a Dark lip as I know I can pull wearing lipstick off.

What's the best Autumn memory you have?

One of my favourite Autumn memories is going to my Grandmas old house when I was little and helping her partner Mike clear up the leaves in my scarf, hat and mittens. I remember being wheelbarrow-ed round the garden and kicking the pile of leaves and toddling off giggling as Mike sighed having to gather the strayed leaves back into a pile. These are really fond memories to me as unfortunately Mike passed away when I was 13.

What is Autumn weather like where you are?
I live in England so when Autumn comes it very slowly gets colder however the sun still shines until the end of October.

Most worn sweater?

It would have to be my Fatface jumper which my friend Katie gave to me as it is very comfy.

What book(s) are you reading this Autumn?
I haven't read many books this Autumn so far except for The Amazing Book Is Not on Fire by Dan and Phil however I have read 2 play scripts which were Fallen Angels and Teechers which were both written well.

Skinny jeans or Leggings?
I do love skinny jeans however now we are into the late stage of autumn Leggings and Ugg boots are my two favourite things to wear. I just find wearing Leggings very comfy especially doing a performing arts course where i'm on my feet most of the day.

Chelsea boots or Uggs?

Can I choose both as they are both my Autumn staple items.

Are pumpkin spice latte's worth the hype?

I have yet to order a full Pumpkin spice Latte for myself however I have tried one of my friends Niall's and I have to say I was skeptical but its really good so I would say it is worth the hype however if you don't like Pumkin Spice, Hot chocolate is will always be worth the hype so try that.

Favourite fall related quote?

“It looked like the world was covered in a cobbler crust of brown sugar and cinnamon.” 
― Sarah Addison Allen, First Frost

What song really gets you in the mood for Autumn?

When Adele released her new song around a week ago I instantly fell in love with her voice again. I have always loved Adele's soulful voice and so far 'Hello' has been on repeat for me.

I hope you enjoyed this Tag post. I had planned on having an October Favourites but because I am away and have all my favourite things at home I can't take blog post photos until I am home so look forward to it being uploaded at the start of November.

Toodlepip x