Thoughtful Thursday || Headspace
10:00 am
Sometimes being left alone with your own thoughts is a little daunting especially when your anxiety is crazy at the moment. We haven't had a good heart to heart in a while so thought I would be brave and share something a little personal. I'l be blunt; I'm not doing so well at this moment in time while I write. We all have good and bad patches and you could say I am going through one of the rougher patches right now which has been the reason for my sudden absences and lack of blogging. I have always seen this little spot on the internet as a place to write about things that make me happy so when I feel the complete opposite I wait until I feel able to write and recently I have been waiting for this magical happiness mindset to come floating back to me yet somehow it floated off a little too far and now i'm a little stranded on Anxiety and Sadness Island (please send a boat asap as the WiFi is terrible!).
I think being now in a place where I am okay for the first time in a long while I feel like I shouldn't still be in the mindset of how I used to feel. I have for the first time in a long while a kind of surrogate family in the form of friends from school and college yet I still feel alone. Maybe it's just me as a person but I feel almost in a sense guilty for the way I feel as in no way do I have the right to feel these emotions when Katy now has it so much better than school Katy for many personal reasons.
I have started to become at peace with myself however the things that burdened me before are still with me and are seeping back into the new life I have formed for myself which has left me feeling a tad uneasy as I don't ever want my past to be relived as that door has been closed. I think sometimes its okay to reflect on the past and that its okay to feel sad for a little while but I need to give myself a pep talk as I am now in a better place however my head and heart needs a little time to catch up and heal from all that they have endured and at the end of the day that's okay.
I know this shall pass and all will be okay. Until next time,
Toodlepip x
I think being now in a place where I am okay for the first time in a long while I feel like I shouldn't still be in the mindset of how I used to feel. I have for the first time in a long while a kind of surrogate family in the form of friends from school and college yet I still feel alone. Maybe it's just me as a person but I feel almost in a sense guilty for the way I feel as in no way do I have the right to feel these emotions when Katy now has it so much better than school Katy for many personal reasons.
I have started to become at peace with myself however the things that burdened me before are still with me and are seeping back into the new life I have formed for myself which has left me feeling a tad uneasy as I don't ever want my past to be relived as that door has been closed. I think sometimes its okay to reflect on the past and that its okay to feel sad for a little while but I need to give myself a pep talk as I am now in a better place however my head and heart needs a little time to catch up and heal from all that they have endured and at the end of the day that's okay.
I know this shall pass and all will be okay. Until next time,
Toodlepip x
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