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Hello Bloggerbeans,

Sometimes being left alone with your own thoughts is a little daunting especially when your anxiety is crazy at the moment. We haven't had a good heart to heart in a while so thought I would be brave and share something a little personal. I'l be blunt; I'm not doing so well at this moment in time while I write. We all have good and bad patches and you could say I am going through one of the rougher patches right now which has been the reason for my sudden absences and lack of blogging. I have always seen this little spot on the internet as a place to write about things that make me happy so when I feel the complete opposite I wait until I feel able to write and recently I have been waiting for this magical happiness mindset to come floating back to me yet somehow it floated off a little too far and now i'm a little stranded on Anxiety and Sadness Island (please send a boat asap as the WiFi is terrible!).

I think being now in a place where I am okay for the first time in a long while I feel like I shouldn't still be in the mindset of how I used to feel. I have for the first time in a long while a kind of surrogate family in the form of friends from school and college yet I still feel alone. Maybe it's just me as a person but I feel almost in a sense guilty for the way I feel as in no way do I have the right to feel these emotions when Katy now has it so much better than school Katy for many personal reasons.

I have started to become at peace with myself however the things that burdened me before are still with me and are seeping back into the new life I have formed for myself which has left me feeling a tad uneasy as I don't ever want my past to be relived as that door has been closed. I think sometimes its okay to reflect on the past and that its okay to feel sad for a little while but I need to give myself a pep talk as I am now in a better place however my head and heart needs a little time to catch up and heal from all that they have endured and at the end of the day that's okay.

I know this shall pass and all will be okay. Until next time,


Toodlepip x

Toodlepip x

This took a while to upload and put together however i'm really happy with all of the looks. Unfortunately I couldn't find all the links to every clothing item however am sure that you will find them in store if you like an item without a given link. I'l be sure to carry on searching and updating as i find them but if you find the link before It's updated be sure to tell me in the comments below so other Bloggerbeans will find it easier. My favourite has to be the light denim dress as its perfect for looking formal yet stylish and will be definitely be trying this look out for college. Whats your favourite? Until Next time,

Toodlepip x

Hello Bloggerbeans,
and hello to April! The month full of daffodils, sunny weather and bright adventures to be had before Summer is here, a pre summer if you like. We couldn't start this month off without a Essentials post so here is my top picks of things that I will be using throughout the month of April.

Books:

Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone - This months book recommendation is Harry Potter and the philosophers stone. I have always wanted to be part of the Harry Potter Fandom and after my good friend Elizabeth brought me the first book of the series for my birthday I can join the second generation who are picking up the books for the first time.

Makeup:
Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara - Just like the Benefit Rollerlash mascara which every beauty blogger has been loving, Maybellines Lash Sensational Mascara has also been getting a lot of attention and after purchasing a couple of weeks back have been wearing as part of my spring everyday makeup as it makes my lashes look so full and gives the illusion that i'm wearing false lashes when i'm not which is awesome.

Spring Lipstick Colours - Coming from winter and being all about a berry lip, I was seriously lacking when it came to my spring Makeup collection so invested in a couple of pink shades with one even ending up in my Spring Makeup Refresh look which you can view HERE. I like the subtlety of Pink and nude shades and feel I will be wearing a lot of Spring Lipsticks this April. The ones above are Rimmel lipstick is 05 and 08 and Maybelline 175 in Pink Punch.

Skincare:
Simple cleanser - I have recently become converted from Micellar water to cleansers which I have been finding a lot more effective to take off makeup with and with it being brighter, I have been trying to put in place a rigorous skincare routine to make sure my skin is as healthy as ever ready for the summer sun. As a big lover of Simple I purchased their cleanser and have been using it regularly and find its a lot more effective in helping take the days makeup off and wash away any impurities along with being a big motivation as if I am already in the bathroom using the Cleanser I find I am then more likely to use either a facial wash or exfoliater wash before applying night and spot cream.

Fashion:
Earrings - I have not worn earrings in a long time so when I was given this set from New Look for my birthday I decided to give them a go. I especially like the fact that they are quite small so are only noticeable if you really look so are perfect for everyday wear. They come in gold, pink and silver in an array of shapes so will match perfectly with your spring wardrobe.

Flower Crowns - This month I am hoping will be filled with lots of sunny weather so in reflecting this will be trying to wear lots of flower crowns big and small. I find their such a pretty spring (and summer) hair accessory to wear and are a simple, pretty and effective way to put back your hair as the weather begins to get warmer.

Music:
Bry - Lastly on my April Essentials is my music Recommendation which is Bry who you may know through his YouTube channel. He is a singer/Songwriter from Ireland who recently got signed to a record label which is huge news and being a avid follower of his music am so happy for him being recognized in the Music Industry and started to be taken seriously as a musician and not just for his YouTube. Yesterday he released his brand new single Don't Go Alone along with a music video which you can view HERE and am so happy that I have tickets for his Tour which has already begun. A quick shoutout to Katie for getting m tickets for my birthday (she is a good egg.)

Hopefully you enjoyed all the little bits and pieces mentioned in this post and be sure to look out for March's book review of It's Kind Of a Funny Story which should be up next Monday. This post was supposed to be up on Saturday but due to my WiFi issues had to reschedule for Monday which was a bit of a bummer but its finally up now hooray! I hope all you Bloggerbeans are okay and doing well. The try on Haul/Lookbook will be up this week on Friday so keep your eyes peeled for that post as I have been putting a lot of effort into uploads recently and have been enjoying blogging a lot. Until next time, 

Toodlepip x