Hey you,
I think the reason why I abandoned this blog for so long was the sheer terror of coming back and being afraid of what people would think of me for stopping writing. I think this fear took over and manifested itself into the big pit of shame in my stomach and bubbled up and manifested into something so much bigger than me thus stopping me from doing what I wanted and loved doing the most.
Life gets hectic and in turn we stop doing the things that bring us pure unadulterated joy and forget the little things that made us happy, such as the first rays of sun from spring beaming down onto your face, the feeling of being with friends that we care so deeply about, spending time wrapped in the arms of a loved one feeling like this is the cosiest place there will ever be or even just dancing to your own beat and not giving a crap if someone walked in on you at any moment. (oh, that last one just me?...)
I think we get so caught up in our 9-5 routines and forget these little things. Don't ever let those things become a habit as that when we take those moments for granted, we start to forget life's little joys. I have recently admitted to myself (and now the world) that I am struggling. I need help as, dear reader, I definitely do not have my sh*t together which is never a good thing. which is why I have reached out and am soon to start therapy. Having the all-consuming fear become a cloud over your head is something that I need to address and if you too out there are finding things hard then maybe having someone to talk to you such as a trained professional may help.
I will update you on my experience on counseling as there is forever a stigma around mental health and I think that it is important to look after not just your physical body but also your mental state as just like your body, your brain can get sick too. I'll be back soon with another post,
Katie x
