Today's post is going to get a little real for a second. Ever since I was little I have always struggled with body confidence and weight issues and have experienced being overweight and compulsive snacking all the way to the other end of the scale and restricting food and having anorexic tendencies such as to go a long time without eating. These extremes are completely unhealthy and toxic to have which is why putting fitness first and eating healthy has been a huge mantra for me ever since January 2014 when I had enough of family members commenting on my weight and being bullied for it that I decided to weigh myself and weighed in at just over 12 stone and fit into size 14-16 clothes. That may not seem like a figure which would be classed as 'overweight' however being naturally small in height my bmi clearly defined me as overweight veering obese. I didn't want to believe what the scales told me but that was the moment I realized I needed to change for the better. with my body confidence as low as the bottom of the ocean, I took it upon myself to change everything. I NEVER want to be back in that position ever again however it took 6 months of controlled calorie counting with no snacking and hourly sessions twice a week at a local gym to put me back at a healthy weight of just under 10 stone. What got me through it all was buying nice clothes to flatter my figure and a pair of shorts which before march 2014, would had never of worn as I hated my body so much to the point where I only wore leggings and tops.

 I used to be so healthy up until 2013 however with a sudden influx of depression and anxiety caused by personal things that were happening in my life, comfort eating became a habit which was hard to stop. It took a lot of brute force to take responsibility for how much I weighed and it was ages before I admitted to myself that I needed to do something about it. When you are overweight you become stuck in the mindset of being so low about your body confidence which leads you to comfort eat and then put on weight which makes you low about your body confidence and so forth. This constant loop is hard to break but can be done. You have to be so strict with yourself about everything and think about your end goal which was for me to wear those size 12 shorts on holiday to Tossa de Mar. Around March was when I reached my end goal however for 3 months afterwards I carried on going to gym and eating healthy but was a little more relaxed with things. To this day I am still mindful of my health and how I am treating my body.