Last year I started a tradition of telling all you lovely people what each year of blogging has given me:

"Year 1 of blogging brought me lots of happiness in many different ways. There were good and bad days with dark times where I came here to give myself purpose and other wonderful days where I experienced lots of wonderful and exciting things with friends and family (Holding a cat, Passing my singing exam and getting into the college of my choice are just some to name a few)."

So first year Purpose and now second year Confidence. Confidence in the sense of without this blog here I would not of given myself the opportunity to put myself out there in the world. I don't think I would of applied for a performing arts course if it wasn't for the supportive community here which is why I started blogging as before this I felt so alone and by myself in the world. Blogging has become something I know I can always come to to cheer me up, make me smile from the comments left here and there on posts and the pure Joy I get when writing and putting my thoughts down into words in a blogpost.

Not enough thank you's could ever be enough as we celebrate 2 years of all the lovely warmth of this community we have created. Sometimes you really have to look for the hidden happiness in everyday life when things get tricky however it is always there if you are out seeking it. Until next time,

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Dear Katy,

Right now your sat upon your bed writing this blogpost at the age of 17. You are okay, not your best but not your worst. Right now okay is not enough for you, You want to explore the world, discover the life that has been put on hold for you. I hope future Katy reading this has done this and is now able to be do so many amazing things and if not that's okay too. As long as you're being true to yourself that's all I will ever ask of you as I know how hard things have been and am hoping that it got better (It got better right?)

How's mum and Dad? are they okay, go visit them sometime as right now you don't have the best relationship with them. I don't want that to harbor and get worse so present Katy is doing her best to patch things up. Hopefully this shows. What about your friends? Did you still stay connected to them. Go and ring Katie this instant and tell her that you appreciate her as your best friend, even if god forbid you haven't talked in a little while. Have you made any new friends that love you for all your quirks? Don't ever let someone make you feel as small as you once did back in the classroom. That is a vow you promised yourself after the incident which left you so broken from the mean words which cut you up into little pieces like a sword. Did acting work out in the end? If  it did then I am so happy for you but if not what are you doing? If you don't know go out and find what the heck you want to do and follow your passions.

Speaking about passions what are your hobbies now? I hope you found time to learn to paint or retake playing the piano (Yes I know you only got to grade 2 and present Katy is trying to slowly improve). Are you blogging still? The last couple of weeks have been hard for you and you know why. It's been hard to find motivation and the light to the very dark world at the moment. You, future Katy reading this now, are here because present Katy hasn't given up on life just yet. please stick around though as it would be such a stupid move if you didn't.

Did you get to visit America (New York) with Katie? along with Disneyland and Australia and a whole host of other places which you have always dreamed of seeing. You better cry at the Downtown Disney parade though as its been your dream since a child. Speaking of Disney you have watched all the films as present Katy is still in the midst of this.

Okay now for the the deep stuff. Did you go and seek therapy? Someone who listens to you and helps you work out all your life junk and start to put behind you the early life you want to forget as you write this and probably still do when you read this in 10 years time. Finally, do you have a place which you can call home? oh along with the burning question of if you are in a relationship or have 5 cats? Both is good just fyi. Lastly though just remember that whatever happens, you will be okay as life from where present Katy is only going to get better.

Toodlepip x

Life's song right now - To build a Home by The Cinematic Orchestra